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[May. 12th, 2008|02:06 am] |
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I just found out one of my cousins is bipolar. |
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[Apr. 25th, 2008|10:06 pm] |
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I swallowed a big pill!!!! First time in years!! I feel so accomplished. |
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[Apr. 17th, 2008|04:39 pm] |
Wednesday, after sleeping in (and skipping Maternity) I woke up feeling better. I went to the gym, came back, at some dumplings, watched L Word and Scrubs and still felt good. The dark mood has been lifted for the time being.
I think the techno, weight-lifting and car bombs help. |
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[Mar. 15th, 2008|11:19 pm] |
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When you're depressed, sleep isn't a way to rest and regenerate; it's a means to escape being awake.
At least when you're actually drowning, after a relatively short amount of time if you haven't been rescued, you're able to just let go. |
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[Mar. 12th, 2008|06:55 pm] |
Shit. I got a 69 on my maternity exam, leaving me with a 69.5 exam average. No good.
As if I wasn't stressed by that enough, or the fact that I'm about 13 pages deep into a 20 page paper due tomorrow for psych nursing, I also received a formality e-mail from the professor informing me that my current midterm grade is "failing" according to the College of Nursing. Awesome.
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[Mar. 9th, 2008|11:18 pm] |
I've regressed to listening to Alice in Chains. Which, aside from it fitting my perpetually dysphoric mood, it coincides with the epic paper I'm composing about one of my polysubstance-dependent and suicidal patients at Butler.
Nursing school is really an extensive training regimen to teach us how to handle and treat the issues that it will inevitably create for us.
Nicky and I are discovering to have much more in common. This includes our affinity for writing e-mails to our professors about why our paper isn't to be turned in on time that are longer, more articulate than our progress on said papers.
Today I blamed not being 14 pages deeper into my paper than I should be on today's loss of an hour with the time change. Nicky's response, "I do that, too! i WOULD have gone to bed by midnight, but then there was a time change, and as a result, i was actually up until 9am."
I did shitty on my last psych nursing exam, but at least I'm passing. Wednesday's maternity exam isn't looking too promising, especially if this 20-pager due Thursday that I'm 20% done with has anything to do with it. As if those mid-term treats weren't enough to fret over, I am currently overdue on several assignments and clinical time as a result of having a cold, closely followed by getting the flu (and the week of extreme fatigue that follows it). Looks like I have spring break planned.
This time change also means that driving to New London at 9:30am is going to feel like 8:30am. New London is gross, too. Why am I driving to New London so early? My dentist is there, and apparently when we moved from there, it was too annoying to change dentists. So I gotta drive an hour for some chick to tell me I should floss more. |
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[Mar. 3rd, 2008|05:03 pm] |
So today after clinical at Butler, I was browsing through Walden Books at the Warwick Mall.
Not one, not two, but THREE people came up to me at different times asking me questions as if I worked there. Apparently my ensemble just screams "I sell books." |
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[Mar. 2nd, 2008|08:36 pm] |
So the worst part of the flu is over. I was feeling better, except for the usual phase 2 of the flu of coughing and flare up of asthma.. And then last night I started to get pressure under my neck. My glands are suddenly really swollen, my neck is sore, there whenever I bend my head down (like to pick something up) it feels like my ears are going to explode.
Lately I've been spending incredible amounts of time just spacing out. Sometimes thinking, other times just sitting and suddenly realizing that 20-30 minutes have gone by. I suppose I can blame the extreme fatigue on the flu, and having been sick 2 weeks before that started.
Any time I've ever realized I'm really falling for someone, the feelings surrounding the love are those of sadness, fear and hopelessness. I can only hope that's not the way it'll always be.
I have to be at Butler Hospital by 7am tomorrow. I really hope I'm not sicker in the morning - I need to catch up with work before spring break and Texas. All this spacing out and fatigue isn't so great for that.
Super Troopers is on.. good movie for quotes.
I really miss my nap/Scrubs/movie/driving adventure/beach/etc buddy.
I need to do dishes. |
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[Feb. 26th, 2008|09:22 pm] |
National Flu Report, the red color affecting every state except Florida indicating "Widespread" activity.
I have succumbed. |
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[Feb. 21st, 2008|09:33 pm] |
Dickipedia.
You won't regret it.
Clinical kinda blew today. That's about it. I started to get severe anxiety for no reason at approximately 7:56pm while sitting in the Butler computer lab and almost thought I was going to throw up. Consequently, I sucked at my post-conference discussion of what I did today. I keep forgetting assignments, or just not being able to complete them. I should just go to bed. |
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| on Vagina Monologues... |
[Feb. 15th, 2008|09:47 pm] |
JenniScrantoni: how were the vaginas this evening?
akaCID409: i dunno
akaCID409: im at home
JenniScrantoni: oh.
JenniScrantoni: well what are you doing there
akaCID409: ill be there tomorrow though if ur interested u can check in with me
akaCID409: uhm
JenniScrantoni: ok. well i'm going tomorrow night
akaCID409: oh well then
akaCID409: u can see the vaginas then
JenniScrantoni: woohooo
akaCID409: and eat one if u wanna
JenniScrantoni: yeah?
akaCID409: i ate one last night
JenniScrantoni: jealous
akaCID409: sooooo good
JenniScrantoni: i want one..
JenniScrantoni: well, an additional one
akaCID409: 2 bucks
JenniScrantoni: i'm a little skeptical on cheap vaginas
akaCID409: its the best vagina ive ever eaten |
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| Happy Love day to me |
[Feb. 14th, 2008|11:14 pm] |
I officially got the Terrace Apartment RA job!!!!!
revolutionstylee: doing anything to celebrate?
JenniScrantoni: i just ate a pint of twix ice cream and wrote up a room
P.s. I'll get an apartment parking pass.
revolutionstylee: towards the end of my interview the priest told me that since i'm a single anglo-catholic male on the way to priesthood most people at the church will think i'm gay
revolutionstylee: so i was talking with a friend of mine about hiring a hooker to pretend to be my girlfriend
revolutionstylee: sort of like in pretty women
revolutionstylee: but religious |
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[Feb. 13th, 2008|01:38 am] |
Gah.Reason #32 why I dislike wintertime: spontaneous nosebleeds.
In other news, I feel like this is going to be a reaaally long semester. Except for Spring Break (Scranton? Canada? Home with Mythbusters marathons? the possibilities are endless), and then going to Texas with the Student Nurse Association after spring break. yesss. Otherwise, I'm already behind in psych clinical because I had a stupid cold, and except for holding babies, I realllly don't like Maternity nursing. not for me.
Addis, I made you something for Valentine's Day. |
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| Scrubs quote of the day |
[Feb. 6th, 2008|05:57 pm] |
"Relationships don’t work they way they do on television and in the movies. Will they? Won’t they? And then they finally do, and they’re happy forever. Gimme a break.
Nine out of ten of them end because they weren’t right for each other to begin with, and half of the ones who get married get divorced anyway, and I’m telling you right now, through all this stuff I have not become a cynic. I haven’t.
Yes, I do happen to believe that love is mainly about pushing chocolate covered candies and, y’know, in some cultures, a chicken.
You can call me a sucker, I don’t care, because I do believe in it. Bottom line: it’s couples who are truly right for each other wade through the same crap as everybody else, but the big difference is they don’t let it take them down.
One of those two people will stand up and fight for that relationship every time. If it’s right, and they’re real lucky, one of them will say something."
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[Feb. 6th, 2008|12:10 pm] |
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I feel really, really tired about 99% of the time. |
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[Feb. 4th, 2008|12:45 am] |
I had another weird dream the other night. It was pretty "normal" for a while - involving me at some summer camp-looking place, gathering the last of my things I'd left there (like when I'm getting the last of my packing done and it's stuff that makes me think 'wow, I could throw all this away and I'd never miss it') like some shit I made with beads. I don't know. Anyways, everything was typical dream-level weirdness, but then there was a zombie. And the zombie needed to be killed. Good thing I had my beast hammer handy for my male companion to bash the zombie's head in with. It was gory. |
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[Jan. 28th, 2008|10:54 pm] |
I had a weird dream this morning when I napped. Yes, all dreams are "weird", but this one was extra bizarre - not part of my usual genre of subjects and events. There was some sort of extreme weather or space-related event that was about to happen.. apocalypse-like. My friend was in a space station of some sort giving me the heads-up, and that it was going to be extremely cold when it happened. But then it was really dark out, but it felt like the sun was searing into me, even if I stood beneath an underpass. I was then walking with a guy to his house, wearing my winter coat. It was still really warm out, but somehow my coat was keeping the cool air in. |
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[Jan. 27th, 2008|11:24 pm] |
This is all I have to know this semester for nursing:
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[Jan. 26th, 2008|02:49 pm] |
I hate how coffee makes me pee. It's really annoying.
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